it is It....

i can tell you...
by the name of GOD...
It is growing...
each day passed by...
It is getting worse...
I didn't know when it was started...
but still...
It is growing...
I can't tell how it was started...
I simply couldn't resist it...
It makes me mad...
when It does not responded...
or also when I did not respond to It..
Why it hOld such a great key to enter my weaK spot...?
I am helpless..
should I stop it....?
should I ignore it...?
or should I just ignore all those 'should i'?